Divrei Torah by Rabba Kaya
This is a time of journeying. In our weekly Torah reading, we are well on our way in the wilderness journeys of the Israelites. Following a pillar of cloud by day and pillar of fire by night, they move and rest at God's will. It is a journey in which their faith is tested, but over time trust is eventually built. Let us recognize that we are all on a journey of trust.
In this week’s Torah portion Shelakh L’kha, Moses sends spies out and into the Promised Land to ascertain whether it is indeed a good land and gain some sense of what to expect when they enter. The spies return with two messages: It is indeed a good land, overflowing with milk and honey BUT there are giants there, too powerful to conquer. We are “as if, grasshoppers in their eyes.” They declare: Efes,it is all worth nothing! The whole journey has become meaningless, worthless, because Fear has entered their hearts and forward motion is no longer possible. Fear annihilates all potentialities. The mission has become clouded. Fear leads to total despair and a kind of radical skepticism, in which everything is open to doubt. With this mindset the people cannot move forward. They cry to return to Egypt, to a land of enslavement and oppression, because it is familiar, it is known. The mental state of existential fear produces a profound lack of imagination and a paralysis.
Their paralysis will unfold as a sentence to wander in the wilderness for 40 years, until this entire generation has died off and a new generation, born into the wilderness of possibilities, will move forward into a new land, into a new future.
This is a very human story. It is one we can all relate to as individuals but also as a community. Every community must at some point face existential questions. How we respond to these challenges will in fact determine the future of the community. With fear as the guide, the community will long for the past, while seeing themselves as powerless to build a new future.
But let us recall a critical counter-voice in this Torah portion, the voices of Caleb and Joshua. They speak up and declare an objective truth: “The Land is Good! exceedingly so! And God will bring us there.” They express the redeeming quality of TRUST without the inebriation of fear.
This is the spiritual challenge,for each of us in this time and place.
Oftentimes birth and especially transition, can feel like death. And this is because in order for something new to be born, something else needs to give way.
Most women who have given birth can attest to this idea. I vividly recall being in labor with both of my children. This is a process that, once it starts , there is no turning back. It is a one way street that must be traversed. Helpers at the side of the woman cheer her on, “You can do this. You’ve got this. You are doing great!” And they cheer so because this is exactly the help she needs. She needs to believe in her capacity to survive, to see this through, to bring new life into the world. In order to survive mentally, she needs to leave fear behind and trust in her capacity to move through this challenge.
Tonight, I am telling you all: You can do this! You’ve got this! You have all the resources to move ahead into new possibilities. Cultivate an open attitude that expects the community to flourish. Be awake to the tendency to view challenges as anakim/giants and to feel like grasshoppers. This is normal. But when those voices arise within, know that they are merely expressions of fear and not the objective truth. Anchor yourselves in trust for this will allow the imaginative possibilities to unfold and a new reality to form. Reach out to the youth, to young families, to the next generation. They understand the wilderness and they possess a unique vision that will bring relevance and contemporary meaning to this community.
Rabindranath Tagore wrote: Man is immortal; therefore s/he must die endlessly. For life is a creative idea; it can only find itself in changing forms.
These few years we have spent together have been rich with changing forms. We have come together for comfort at times of personal and communal grief. We have rejoiced together in the celebration of festivals and at many beautiful life-cycle events in the lives of our families. We have watched our children embrace Torah and Jewish values. Through song and rhythm, we have enlivened the prayer experience. We have opened our doors and our hearts to the greater Rutland community of many faith-traditions and we have shared countless delicious meals together, schmoozing and connecting with one another under the Sabbath moon. I am deeply grateful for these experiences and for your trust and support in walking with me on this journey of change.
Life is an ever-unfolding mystery which I embrace with wonder. At this time, I am being called to take another step into the unknown. I trust in the process that is unfolding though I know not where it is leading. And I trust that the RJC community has the inner resources to continue its unfolding as a meaningful, relevant and nourishing Jewish community.
In the Talmud it is taught that when one takes leave, she should offer a blessing to those with whom she has learned Torah. I leave you tonight with these words from Talmud Brachot, 17a.
When the sages took leave of the study hall of Rav Ami- and some say it was Rav Hisda they would say to him the following blessing:
May you live to see your world fulfilled
May your destiny be for worlds still to come
May your hope be sustained in generations yet to be
May your heart be filled with understanding
May your mouth speak wisdom, your tongue whisper praise
May your vision be upon a straight path before you
and your eyes shine with the light of Torah
May your face radiate like the glow of the heavens
May your lips speak with truth and kindness
May your feet run to hear the words of the Eternal One.
May your spirit know peace, balance, Shalom.